Walk away........

Teri yadein...its undisputably my favourite song.....its magical....anyways howz u long time no.....i miss you ...a lot ...indeed a lot...i miss ya a lot.....anyays howz life.....i decided to walk away....i should.....i think i should leave you alone....you two u know were perfect together...maybe are.....i wish you luck....i don't need pity ....maybe understanding that you already gave me....so that was that i guess....u two....u know when i looked like that at you two....u guys are like each other......in love .....i don't know what that look meant....maybe i'm still confused very little.....but this was best for both of us.......i will walk away....for your sake.......for mine as well.....for mostly for yours......and you need to realize what you want...u fit in with her the best..... i have to let you go.......trust me its the most loving picture i had ever seen....and i couldn't hold back....i want you to live......live with such intensity....love with such desire......drive it with such passion....i want you....i want you to...i really want you to....to see you laughing waala happy.....like hahahahahaha always.....jumping running like you always do....reflective as you are.....i love those eyes .......such reflection.....non-judjemntal understanding.....perceptive....very very perceptive flowing experience..... loved you for that.....be like that always....even better if you can be......be the way you want to be.....be you always.......you are cardinal ...i kow......you possess an everlasting zest and passion for life ......its amazing....like awsmmmm awsmmmmmmmmm........love it.....i can see life with more understanding now.....wateva.....i'll walk away......u fit in with her....u guys look great together....and whatever is beautiful should stay beautiful.......i want you two to be together....and take my life...all that i have....because i do not possess the ability to make people truly happy.....not atleast to the end....am just toooooooo..... selfish.......and i can't let you suffer because of that....actually can't let anyone suffer on those grounds.....can't hurt you like that anymore.......i know it hurts......i saw that dint of embarrassment or humiliation in those eyes.......and i can never forgive myself for making you feel that way.....after all that you have gone through......i know yours was a painful childhood.....and then your life broke to pieces....and you have....after a long struggle put together the pieces....and have now begun to run.....and i sometimes love to see you run.....u know leap......jump......spring up.......up up and up....i want you to....reallly really want you to.....so i have to turn and walk away....it will hurt me.....but i'll be happy at the end of it....if you get back your love....because that is where you belong......not here.....never here......and i never want you to compromise.......never ever be stuck with me.........fly..........run....spring up and spring down........and have so much fun.....alll the fun that this eternity has to offer ....all the life......all your life ......i want you to be happy.....i want you to live.....a million times more than me........love
mischelle