Friday, December 31, 2010

My Chocolate Brownie Dayzzzzzz.......

U know its winters...and i get that wintry feeling.....i dont really feel like jogging in the cold evenings so i just walk....long evening walks in the dark alone.....i just love them.........and i recently have started feeling like having chocolate brownies daily.........ofcourse without nuts...i just dislike the nuts.....they disturb the pure pleasure of thick liquid riverlike warm molten brownie...i like a little icecream with it...the way the 'classic' people serve it....but i want them to make the brownie warmer and put lesser icecream orelse the entire thing gets cold....but anyways its awsommmmmmm....sinful pleasures and fantasies.........Awwwwwwww........i love my chocolate brownieeeeeee dayzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......and i don't even care about exams and studies.......to hell with them! had destroyed my last year winters slogging for boards....there has to be a limit somewhere....and no one but i understand...i am through competing mindlessly with people...all i do is lie in bed or surf the net amidst my warm furry cosy blankets in my nice warm room....and these winters i feel very less of insecure and very destressed ....and after today very little really........am feeling great nowadayz...really...and i sometimes love being alone.....but i think i should snap out of my dream world and now do some work....exams are a week away.....i don't know if i will actually work or not...but lets see another day today......i dont want to slog in any case anyway.....i will simply study as much as i can comfortably....and i am putting an end to my warm chocolate brownie days.....oh yes ! i forgot to tell u i have developed a likin for my tomato soup that mom prepares daily....and i like it served in my special pink bowl with special white soupy spoon in that special pink tray...orelse i don't feel like having it........and even that keeps me a lot of warm....a more nutritious substitute for warm chocolate brownie......but i just wish i hadn't put on weight during my boards ...i just wish i would have been among those thin girls and enjoyed tomato soups and brownies daily carelessly...but i  had slogged a lot in past.....and here is the result ...all i can do is make the most of it now...and enjoy my perfect evenings...ang warm tomato soup days  ....which i have begun to love as welllllll.......and try to get to being thin...i want to wear that long white skirt that the vampire's girlfriend wears.......love it .......and for that i will have to be superslim....god help me i want to be thin........anyways.....luvd my chocolate brownie dayzzzz......and here is the new year resolution.......get thin and enjoy life more !!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Eternally in love !

U know this crazy habit of being in love almost most of the time of my life.......there have been minor attractions here and there....but you know very very few major crushes.........i guess this is the second or the third......i think i should say third as far as the entire life span goes......but the second matured one....and you know the thing about this this is majorly unresponsive ...as in i have never chased really never...infact that arrogantly anti-relationship freak  i had spent the prime of my teenage years as .......u know i didn't end up knowing much about love......and i had believed those stupid theories and notions that friends and family had feeded me with ....but they had also made me be a silent observer ...an observing audience for a long time ...and seriously...now i have begun to create my own original views......my own interpretations...they may be wrong...infact some of them don't exactly seem to work out with me....but still i love doing this...this is much better than withholding myself.....and listening to those mindless idiots....who simply follow the hearsay and rat race and that bhed chaal as we put it......
so moral of the story could be....never believe the hearsay....don't comment unless we have experienced stuff for our own....orelse w might as well end up messing stuff........life could have turned out certainly better had i just listened to my heart......
love
mischelle

So begun blogging.....

U know i had always wanted to blog...since i was in class 9....and i kept on procrastinating....always always and always......probably coz i was lazy...and more so fear of the technicalities of gadgets and this complicated world of internet...and creating an account and bullshit.....and exams(that was the time when i took exams seriously ).....a friend ..a cousin had once mentioned it here and there and see years went by....unfruitful....as in we loose our diaries ..our random pages on which we write precious  random stuff.....our random fleeting thoughts and awesome amazing ideas don't even last in our memory for a day....but see....this this is the thing about e-blogs and the net....it preserves...anyways.....it would have been fun to read my articles and my mind...a few years later...how times change...and how we change ...and how we thought that time....and u know u can't post every bullshit thing on facebook ..i mean u can but still there might be a hesitation sometimes.....here and there......so here its a free world ..and welcome so finally i am on blog before this another landmark year ends...and yes i did make it to LSR....i did live up to those dreams somewhere...but this time i may want something different....entirely different...very high chance....anyays...ceeya and congratulations..anyways...for creating a blog that should have been four years before.........and yes i am in love nowadays...i forgot to tell u...love ya!!!!!!