kyun karti hun main itna time waste.....why cant i do anything constructive...???there were times when i used to be so driven and so committed to my work ...my aims.....what now....but now?????i am gone....ab nahi hoga na mujse ye sab......kya karun .......shall i give up....wase bhi college mey rehkar apna time waste karti hun......is being a piscean such a sin...kya karun ....mar jaun....bhaag jaun.......kya karun ab main.......ye life kitni wasted cheez hai...hum sab kitne misfits hain na..........all of us in the wrong places.....matlab zaruri hai college jaana...itna courage to shayad tha hi nahi kabhi mujhme ki main isse mukar jaun....ye saare systems jo society follow karti hai.....getting a degree.......no 4-5 degrees.......jobs....bullshit....oh ! why can't we travel with our loved ones....to far off lands......sit by the loving sands......fly in the oceans....with waters all around ......in the storm ...in the dark.......at the sunrise at the sunset....oh i would love to.........love to be led.....and also to be able to travel my own paths.......oh ! that courage....my own charted ways..........and i want to be independent and totally independent...but i'm still not sure of this....but one thing that i m more sure of ...i want someone at the end of it all....to lean on ....to hug and to share life with.........and this air that i breathe....and these magnetic sensousness.....and that everdying soul.....i am shit scared....i am alone...i'll die alone....oh what shall i do......no but i love being alone....but i fear sometimes it may not be good for me....not too much of it but i dont know....do i sound vague....hell the sin of being a piscean you know.........o o o ....hahahah.....this o o o thing is from hillary duff's what dreams are made of.....i love hillary duff....mostly....
love
mischelle
love
mischelle
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