For Teek

                                                                
                                                     I

We are all assholes

Indeed we are

It hurts like hell

That feeling as if

Something is strangling

Me so hard

That I can’t seem to feel alive AGAIN

If all those who love each other could be together and all those who yearn for each other each other could express the same .Those barriers for that matter …they keep us so much apart …so much away….they cause so much hurt…so much pain.

This world has created enormous distances…as distances distance me from you.

How does it leave hope for survival of the world

For the sake of life that runs in the veins of the eternity all around me

Oh Dear Mighty  ! Let Peace prevail  ! Let there be light

Take my love …Give my love

Let it share

But how can that be if that is not it

You brake speed at every sign

Why every step sanctions divine

When I don’t feel a God beneath

When security disguises as religious shrine

Comes knocking at the door of my oblivion

I don’t know where went the fairies

They were always here with me

They were always here with me

Lullabying  me to sleep.

                                      II

Ok Listen

I’m very tensed

I know how I always bug you

How I always shock you

And then distance myself

Is it a game kind of thing ?hm?

Alright

Because I know men are donkeys

I hate them for that

Crazy they are

Idiotic I feel

I miss you like heavens miss hell

Like rains miss monsoons

Like we idiots miss face book

Like I miss staring at your updates on face book

As I miss you through this pain

It hurts each second

As I try to prove my worthiness…my decency

I am tired of this exercise…of this entire proving business….

As in why do I feel I have to

As I stand before myself facing theses clouds

As I keep digging into the unearthed rocks

The dire need for erosions struck me not once not twice but again..

This trust was always the most difficult thing to give

But as I look around this world of humans

How complex…why does it have to be so many of us….like too many cooks spoiling the broth or what?

Have we made it for ourselves Just how?

Is the world of that cute little jerky ant seriously as complex?

I wish I knew.

Thus.

As I write thus

As I go to sleep

As I lie down in bed

As I stare at your face book page.

As I stare at your DPs

As I go on all my trips tours and travels

Sitting in that ruthlessly cold and honest train

Through the awesome night –time discussions

Through that difficult scary night at Panna you would never know.

Through the long late night walks ,conversations, awesome things

I wish you were here

I wish you were just there

Sitting bullshitting

Laughing crapping writing

Observing secretly smiling that jhandu way you always did

But still I wish you were just there

Here.

                                                      III

Insomnia for instance….no wait !

Will you take responsibilty for her dark circles…..

Jerk !!!!!
Princesses have to be goodlooking and youthful you idiot!!!!!!!!!!
I know yours is an extremely busy life
but I am telling you a cute little princess is facing a lot of issues because of you....

                                                         IV

Hey I  miss you every moment …every millimoment

Every draconian time

I don’t know what to say

I am so saaaaad

My life becomes recklessly ruckus without you

I am sad because I know a lot of my desperations might just be a façade

May only be a dream…another fantasy…

Who knows!

But still as my heart craves for more

All the practicalities came rushing by

And I attempted to let them take over me

I wasn’t surprised by the futility of the attempt as I bring myself to realize again and again

That I was never meant to be grounded

Oh dear piscse! Help me breathe…….

                                                V

Because I want a man

Who loves me as much as I love him

If not more

I want a man who tears apart at the sight of me walking away

As much as I do

Because I want a man

Who misses me as intensely as I miss him

Because I want a man who treasures every moment spent with me

As much as I do

And if this can’t be

Let me be single.